every now and then i'd have an okay day, or an okay moment, but for the most part things were just bad. this was affecting my holiday spirit (i had none.), relationships with certain people in my family and even some of my friends, and seriously making things just seem horrible.
over the past few days, i've been trying to asses the root of all the struggles in my life, and yesterday, i finally figured it out. (well... i already knew this all along, i was just too selfish and shut-off to realize it.) even though i have little or no control over the things that other people do to me, even though i hate my job and am seriously broke its not even funny anymore, even though people may be doing things that i can't deal with or don't agree with, there is one thing i can control that will alter how all of those things affect me. my attitude.
you see, everyone is struggling with things. i read posts like this where she describes almost exactly how i'm feeling inside and i realize how selfish and petty i'm acting. i'm not the only one with problems. i'm not the only one struggling. i'm not the only one that is sad and depressed and numb. there are hundreds of thousands of people out there with problems just like mine. some are even worse off than i am!
if i would just stop acting so woe-is-me and start having a better attitude about life, i know i'd be happier and even though my problems might not diminish right away, my positive perspective would help me deal with things better and not feel so helpless. my situations might not change, but i will be changed.
i believe that in being more positive and changing my attitude, i'll be more grateful for what i have therefore setting in to motion good things to come. and who doesn't want good things coming their way? i know i do. and so it is with that hope in mind, that beacon of light no matter how small it is, that i move forward in life with a refreshed outlook and a more positive attitude. and my life will be better because of it.
i just know it will.
2 comments:
Oh my gosh do I get in mood like that. Don't beat yourself up friend. It's human nature to think of yourself as the center of the universe every once and awhile (doesn't mean it's right, but we all do it)
everyday will get a little better if you just think it will. positive thinking is SO much more powerful than anyone gives it credit for. and trust me, I forget the MOST out of anyone I know.
this post is one I wrote when I felt similar to how you are feeling. it quotes one of my favorite movies.
http://neverlandwonderment.blogspot.com/2010/04/sadness-is-easier-because-its-surrender.html
"Sadness is easier because its surrender. I say make time to dance alone with one hand waving free."
I have been there.
But I have made the decision to be a positive person and it truly works! Although my life hasn't changed much (yet) I am enjoying so much more, because I feel great. ANd all because I am making the choice in each moment to feel good rather than bad.
It gets easier the more you do it, so don't get discouraged along the way.
It will change your life!
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